Beauty

It's funny, I wrote this post almost 2 months ago and from reading other blogs and updates the trend for 2012 seems to be ditching traditional resolutions and instead giving the year a name or a theme.  Guess I'm right on track with the latest trends this time ;)

I am an engineer, a list maker, left-brained, organized, efficient, productive, goal oriented….

At the beginning of each year I actually enjoy setting goals to be accomplished over the following 12 months.  Sometimes Logan humors me and does them with me, but I know he hates it.  I strive to make my goals SMART (specific, measurable, attainable, realistic and timely).  I usually attempt to come up with 2-3 goals in a variety of set categories like spiritual, physical, relationships, finances, marriage, kids, etc

Sounds so put together, right?  And life-killing

I constantly struggle with letting go of the driving need to accomplish everything on my ever-growing lists.  When life is busy the first thing to go is time with friends or a head-clearing run.  It is natural for me to feel that I have many responsibilities and to find worth in my accomplishments and to brush off the “fluff” of life as unimportant.  How much of life do I miss by doing this?!

That is why for 2012 I have only 1 goal – enjoy beauty.  I plan to make the conscious decision to let myself take the time to enjoy life around me: to stop cleaning up the kitchen long enough to witness a beautiful sunset, to release money in the budget to experience music or art, to get down on the ground with the kids to study a new bug, to choose a hike in nature over another Saturday morning of running errands and getting things done

And now I have to do it, because it’s a goal and I have to accomplish my goals ;)